Embracing Vulnerability: The Courage to Share My Healing Journey

Each soul has a vastly different spiritual awakening, journey and story to tell, and I realise that I have never shared mine with you all. There is a reason for this……I have Scorpio rising in my astrological birth chart, so I will always swing the conversation back to you, avoiding exposing myself, and remaining hidden in the shadows.

So lets start afresh with this….. Hi I’m Yvette, I am spiritual soul who loves life but once I had a tormented soul that was deeply unhappy, through fear, shame, low self-worth and anxiety. Did it look that way from the outside? No.

Fast forward to 2025, and the energy sessions I provide continue to fill me with joy as I assist beautiful souls navigating their unique yet often similar journeys. I support individuals as they confront soul trauma, past-life challenges, and generational issues, all before even addressing this lifetime! We are truly complex beings, but once we choose to let go of the burdens of the past, it becomes a deeply liberating experience. Each day, a little more sunshine begins to illuminate the heart.

Once, I was not assured, brave and courageous, confident in myself, with conviction in who I am, in fact I felt the exact opposite and scared as well as fearful of many many things, people being the biggest thing that scared the SH*T out of me.

Why? It took me quite sometime to fully understand this myself, and realise that I am an ancient soul. On my healing journey I have seen many lifetimes extinguished because of my ability to heal and for the ancient wisdom and beliefs that I held.

I was blessed with an amazing childhood with incredible parents, grandparents, but there was always something wrong for me within. Never feeling like I belonged anywhere, and that I never felt at home here on earth, and it was incredibly lonely as I could never truly express myself (and I still struggle with this and will say jokingly that English is my 2nd language). Often I wanted to run away and leave but didn’t know why, or where I was going to, and all I craved was my soul family.

As a child I didn’t understand about spirituality, although I went to church with Nan when staying in the city, and she always answered my curious questions that were never ending about God, the angels etc. But it still felt like I wasn’t getting the right answer.

I never shared with anyone that I always had insight, déjà vu, and a deep connection with my faith and an unwavering belief in the universe and my god.

Growing up and being lonely, even with a loving family around, being extremely sensitive and an empath meant I had to put a bubble around myself and go within my shell, often in books. That wall of shyness sheltered me until I was in my late 20’s. Having children in my early 20’s really exacerbated my insecurities because I was supposed to be turning up at playgroups, kindergarten, school and sports, engaging and making playdates and developing my own friendships with parents. All the while inside my inner self was screaming at me that I was a failure in life, that I was ugly, fat, boring, and I would often avoid social events, or cross the other side of the street to avoid someone depending on how I was feeling that moment in that day.

Yes my anxiety was through the roof, my adrenals were shot, liver overloaded, I relied on a lot of sugar to get through, chocolate soothed my feelings and I became a closet eater. So as you can guess, I was feeding and reinforcing those beliefs, and they were constantly mirrored back to me. I was in a vicious cycle of unworthiness, inner hate, self loathing, never seeing what others saw.

There are gifts that the universe gives us, and mine came in a close shave of a car accident. An angel was present that day that I did a u-turn in front of a bus, and 2 inches closer to my body and it would have been a different story. I was horrified that my children saw the whole thing, but that was my lowest point in life, I was in a job I hated, stuck in a cycle, having to provide. That turning point forced me to say no more, and I left the job not long after.

Walking away with a twisted spine meant I had to relearn about taking care of my body, and slowly I learnt to love my body. With an excellent yoga teacher I immersed myself in not only yoga asana, but the traditions of yoga, pranayama (breathing), meditation, kirtan (call and response singing) and many other practices. This was where I learnt about frequency, the spiritual planes and drove my husband nuts for a long time while I embraced my new passion in life.

Finally I found my people!! To the point where I undertook vows as a yogini (a junior yogi), I have my own sacred mantra and sacred mala beads as these ancient beliefs are very special to me.

Again my learning and re-remembering of my ancient self was being called, and it was like this for a number of years until I met the woman who is my spiritual mother, and also started to embrace training in healing modalities. During my full on yoga years my third eye re-opened as did the intuition, visions, and claircognizance.

After gaining knowledge through various courses, I faced the “Dark Night of the Soul,” experiencing depression and anxiety. Instead of internalizing my struggles, I confided in my supportive husband, who was also on a spiritual journey. Navigating this emotional turmoil required significant effort, but boxing and journaling became my outlets. Boxing helped me release pent-up anger, while journaling allowed me to process emotions and embrace forgiveness and love for myself and others.

Self-care became essential during this time, and it was then that my body reacted negatively to wheat, gluten, dairy, soy, and sulfites. Now, I recognize this as part of my spiritual journey and I willingly eliminate most of these food items from my diet. Embracing clean eating has greatly benefited both my mind and soul, and I find joy in this choice.

Today, I stand in a place of empowerment, self-love and acceptance, harmony within and proud of the woman that I have become, rather than seeing how different I am, knowing that earth is not my home. I embrace this because that’s Yvette Kim and she’s become an amazing woman, who stands for her beliefs, will back the people that she loves, cherishes her family, dances like a crazy woman around the fire, embraces a good drumming session, honours all souls, supports and holds space for beautiful people who are undertaking their own healing path. Finally she doesn’t give a Sh*t about who sees her dance, cry, express her emotions, play like a 3 year old, and that has been worth it, because she’s one amazing goddess who has another 50 years to live!!